Monday 28 October
Submissive elina woke up in a very humble reflective mood this morning. Yesterday evening, after elina had sent the first part of its diary for publication as elina was writing its mandatory report to Mistress Empress suddenly elina was interrupted by its Superior Mistress Empress asking elina in chat how desperate elina was to watch a video of Mistress feet.
elina was desperate. elina is entused bordering on infatuated by Mistress Empress; Her beauty, Her wisdom, Her self-confidence and everything else. elina enjoyed periodically going through all posts Mistress Empress has made on Her Onlyfans account, re-reading Mistress Empress points, looking for inspirations for how to serve better, improve elina’s attitude and worshipping Mistress pictures. Then suddenly, Mistress Empress instructed Her submissive elina that elina was No longer allowed to look at any picture of Mistress showing Mistress above Her knees.
elina was deeply frustrated and unhappy with this. But elina did make a strong effort to comply, elina understands and accepts that it must Obey Mistress Empress regardless what the order is, it is not for elina to select which orders to obey. Just after this Mistress Empress instructed elina to start this diary, informing elina that explicit pictures were to be included, elina would be exposed at femdoming.com. elina did not expect this and elina had concerns about privacy.
Once elina understood that Mistress Empress had considered the privacy issues, elina started to follow Mistress orders. Still, elina struggled a lot to find the right approach.
Yesterday evening elina was really tired after a long day of struggles and finally having submitted the first section on time. elina was planning to go to bed as soon as it had finished its report to Mistress Empress. But just as elina sent its daily report to Mistress, elina noted that Mistress Empress icon turned green. Elina could not log out, elina stayed on hoping for Mistress to reach out to elina.
When Mistress soon after did approach on chat, asking how desperate elina was to see pictures or videos of Mistress Empress Feet, elina woke up. Completely alert, desperately wanting to serve. As Mistress shared more and more pictures, elina was soon nude on its knees, toes together, knees apart, no touching the sissy clitty straining in desperation, mentally worshipping every little picture Mistress was sharing, frantically typing in chat to tell Goddess Empress Control, elina’s Mistress Empress how grateful elina was and how this made elina want to serve. Elina forgot all about needing to sleep until Mistress decided to end the conversations with the following message:
Mistress Empress is an expert on how to get through to elina. elina had spent a large part of the day with a but-plug up its ass to fulfill Mistress Epress order to ready itself to be pegged should Mistress Wife decide She wants to take elina this way. elina can so empathize with the submissive in the picture being fucked by the Most Wonderful Domiannt Lady, not unlike Goddess Empress Herself elina thought, and incidentally, not unlike Mistress-Wife either.
Elina was so happy, so grateful to Mistress Empress for sharing the wonderful pictures, even videos and a fabulous short sound-recording with Mistress mesmerizing voice, conveying a message elina doesn’t want to share. Elina feel it is just so wonderful and personal that the words cannot reflect its effect on elina.
So elina went to bed in a very happy, submissive mode. When elina woke up this morning, the mood was still there, stimulating lots of thoughts on how elina can serve both Mistress Empress and Mistress Wife with even commitment and devotion. Throughout the day, these thoughts popped up again all the time. As elina saw the need to wash the floor in the kitchen, elina did not think of using the equipment allowing elina so stay upright, no elina went to its hands and knees.
Then elina suddenly felt that this was not enough, elina went back to the bathroom to reinsert its biggest butt-plug even if elina had removed it less than an hour before because elina felt sore. Now elina felt it was wrong to not have this inserted while doing its utmost to ensure the Floor would be cleaned to Mistress complete satisfaction.
As elina started cleaning, it suddenly remembered Mistress-Wife, in a stern voice not long ago when elina had also cleaned the floor, asking elina if it had not noted the dirt on the walls, cupboards, drawers. And elina felt ashamed for not remembering Mistress-Wife’s clear directive and started to clean not just the floor but the rest of the kitchen as well.
Hearing Mistress Empress voice directing elina to perform each task with diligence and devotion, remembering that each order obeyed, each task performed can be seen as another step towards ever deeper submission that is elina’s path to becoming a gynarchic slave.
Now, in the evening, elina is still in a very submissive mode. And then, as elina started to write this text, elina again logged on to Onlyfans to see if there were any new messages from its highly esteemed Mistress Empress, only to find no words but a photograph showing what looks like a form to freeze ice cubes in the shape of butt-plugs. In front of three glasses, each with an ice cube shaped as a butt-plug. Anybody can guess what emotions this set off in elina.
